Things have been...well......not so good for quite some time here at Camp Bullseye. Me and Mrs. Bullseye have had our differences over the past year and our relationship has gone all to hell you might say. It seems like we have just grown apart and are little more than strangers. We go days sometimes without speaking a word to the other mostly out of spite. We are both pretty hard headed like that. I have a bad feeling that it's just not going to last much longer, maybe til the school year ends. I think she has a plan and I'm just not privy to the information as of yet. I can just feel it. Sometimes you just know and I do. Not really looking forward to it and I hope that things will get better.......I'm trying, really I am. She don't give much once she has her mind made up though and I think she has done just that. She can be cold as well diggers ass. I have had nothing but the cold shoulder for some time now and I'm getting pretty damn tired of it. I'm trying to give her the benefit of the the doubt and just playing it off that she is still depressed over loosing her grandmother but I know it's more than that. I have been trying to prepare myself for the shit hitting the fan right here on the home front but not really sure what to do. Mostly preparing myself mentally I guess. I can make it on my own. I made it pretty damn good for nearly 35 years before she came along so I can make it. I worry though............about my kids. We have 2 at home, one is hers by a previous marriage and we have one together. I fear that she will move back to WV where most of her dads family is and where we both grew up. I can't let her take my baby away from me. I lost several years of my oldest daughters life due to a divorce and I will NOT let that happen again. This damn world has done nothing but take from me every since the day I set foot on it. I ask for only one thing in my life PEACE, and it's the only thing I can't seem to find. I thought it was here, that's why I moved here to start with but once again it has eluded me like so many times before. Not sure what the next days and weeks will bring but I stand ready............as ready as one can be I guess.
This is Bullseye...OUT !!!